They are now inside now and Jeffrey seems a little frustrated and angry, kind of slamming down something on the counter. He lets out a sigh as he puts down the video camera. Jeffrey says to Reva, I got admit, it was good camera work. Reva takes off her coat and in a tone to try to calm him, says, Jeffrey.........Jeffrey takes off his coat too and says with sarcasm in his tone, No, no, It captures the real you! Well, at least the one that uh......throws a party for herself and puts on a red dress and drives off into the sunset to die. Reva looks shocked that he said that and says, You can't compare that! I knew I was dying then Jeffrey, this is different! But if the worst should happen, then..........He interrupts her, saying, It's not, okay, it's not gonna happen.......but then again, you're videotaping your own obituary, so........Reva says, I am trying to be a good mother. I want our child to see me and hear me and know how much I loved him and his father! ........To know that I wanted to be there for him when he was growing up, but if I can't......she's getting very emotional and choked up with tears now. Jeffrey says in a louder stern voice, You can, you can and you will! He takes the video camera and Reva asks, What are you doing? Jeffrey says, I want you to erase it! Reva says, No! Jeffrey says, I will! They both pause for a moment, look at each other with stubborn wills and he says in a softer tone, Reva, you are gonna be there, okay......he puts his hands on her arms in a comforting tone and goes on saying.......For his first birthday, and you're gonna be there for his first tooth, you're gonna be there for all of it, but you have to choose to live, you have to live to see it, okay, and not look into some camera and say goodbye. He ends his words with a more stronger tone. Reva says, Well, you know what it's funny, because when I was making them, I thought I was saying, HELLO! Jeffrey yells, WELL, YOU WERE WRONG! Then he pauses and asks, Them.......? How many of these did you make? Reva is trying to hold back her tears and gives him a guilty look and goes to the closet............He asks, Reva.......? She pulls out a box and shows him there are several volumes of her videos. He gives her a sad and almost disgusted look and she gives him a sad look in return.............
Jeffrey is looking at the box of videos. He looks shocked, but in a calm way. He takes them and goes to sit as Reva explains, It started out as a video diary.........I wanted to document every moment of this pregnancy, and.......then I realized it might be the only thing that our child has of me, and I wanted him to know that.......she is still very choked up........Jeffrey is sitting on the back of the couch and kind of interrupts her saying in a calm manner, So, that first chemo session, we went to, and you made that great speech, how hopeful you were........Reva says, I was. Jeffrey says, But then you came home and you grabbed a camera and you started telling your son that you weren't gonna make it. Reva says, No, I said, just in case.......Jeffrey picks one of the videos up and says, This one, this was the day that we bought the crib. It was a day that was full of hope and joy, but I guess that was just for my benefit, right, because while I was piecing that crib together, you were busy telling your son how you really felt. Reva says, I had both. I had both, hope and fear. I just wanted to be able to let him know, that if I weren't around, I wanted him to know that my love for him, would never die. Jeffrey says in a sarcastic tone, Oh, that's beautiful Reva, that's really beautiful......he tosses the videos on the counter and says, That should be on a greeting card or something, but don't sell it to me. Reva says louder, I'm not selling anything. She is bawling now and yelling through her tears.......... You wanna know why I didn't tell you about those videos, it's because I knew you would make me be brave and strong, 24/7. Jeffrey says in anger and determination, You do have to be brave strong, that's how your gonna beat this thing! You can't give up! You can't quit, Not for one second, not for.......He's slapping his hand with the other trying to emphasize his point. Reva yells over him, You think you have to tell me that! I'm the one who rolled the dice and decided to have this baby! ........When everyone else, including you and my doctor told me to terminate, but I'm not naieve! I know what can happen, even if you don't want to face it! Jeffrey says in anger, I don't want to face it? Reva, I FACE IT EVERYDAY!! When I wake up at 4 in the morning, to make sure that YOU ARE STILL BREATHING, OR WHEN I FEEL IF THE BABY IS STILL MOVING! She's trying to stop him saying, Jeffrey....... He says in a bit of a calmer, but still angered tone, Reva, you know what kind of a man I am. You know what kind of a life I lived. You know what it took, to buy into this, happy ending stuff. I believed in you, Reva. Reva says, I know......I know, and I love you for believeing.......Jeffrey asks in more anger, Well, then how can you, prepare to die, when I'm doing everything I can to make sure that you live! Reva asks, ........And you don't think I'm fighting? I'm doing everything in my power, not to run back to that hospital and beg them to give me more chemo! She is yelling again and says in her own anger, I AM HANGING ON BY MY FINGERNAILS HERE, AND I DON'T NEED......my husband calling me a quitter. She ends her words through her tears. Jeffrey puts his hands on her arms and says in a calmer tone, Then don't. Don't quit and don't you dare leave me to raise that kid alone, cause I'm not gonna show him those tapes, because I don't want him to see what a coward his mother was. Her sadness and tearful face turns to shock and anger at Jeffrey's comment. She pauses and just pushes his hands off her arms in disgust and anger, and takes her coat and just walks out on him. He's left with a frustrated look..........(WOW, What a scene, that was gutwrenching. Bradley and Kim were amazing)
Reva is now at the hospital and in an examining room. She's talking to a sonogram picture of the baby. She says in a quiet tone, I need some advice from you, I do. She sighs and says, You're daddy said some things to upset me, but he only said them, because he was upset too. Both of us have been one big raw nerve these past few days, and I really wish you could know us, when we're normal, because we're alot of fun. She's speaking now with some determination in her voice and goes on saying .........And the three of us together, are gonna have a great time. She lets out another sigh and goes on talking to herself and to the picture and says, I wanna call him, I do, but then there's that part of me that says, I should just back off and let him calm down. She says looking at the pic, When you get to know me, you'll know that I never back away from anything. They show a close up of the sonogram as Reva goes on........And in case you haven't noticed, I tend to say things, without worrying about the consequences, or sometimes I don't even worry about them at all, ever, so........she lets out another sigh and asks, What do you think I should do........? Just then, Rick comes in and says, Hello. Just thought I'd stop by and say Hi, but I didn't want to interrupt your..........he pauses as he looks around and says, ........your........conversation with your imaginary friend.......? Reva gives him a little powty smile and holds up the pic of the sonogram and Rick says in a sweet tone, Oh, is that........, look at him, I didn't know you were talking to this little guy. Reva says in determination, You know what, Rick, maybe you can help! Rick says, What do you mean, you want me to get your doctor? What is it? Reva says, No, no, maybe you can help me, figure out how to be married. I'm used to living on the rollercoaster, but Jeffrey got into this marriage, for a whole other reason. Rick says, If he knew what he was getting himself into..........Reva says, No, he was looking for a different rollercoaster ride. She's trying to hold back her tears again and goes on saying, He was looking for that one where you hold your hands up in the air you know, and you get to the top......as she motions holding her arms up and says........and you get to scream your way all the way down......but instead, there we are, clinging onto that bar, you know......on that rollercoaster, praying to God, that we'll still be alive, when we get to the end of that ride. He won't accept that I may not make it out of this, you know. Rick says, You know what's funny about that, he always struck me as the pessimistic one. Reva says, I'm not being pessimistic, I'm being realistic. She goes on saying, Things have been different, with Jeffrey, they have. She's crying again and speaking through her tears saying, We haven't had a whole lot of time together, and what time we have left together, I don't wanna spend in stupid arguements and misunderstandings. I wanna do what's best, for both, him and this baby. Rick takes Reva's hand and says, Reva, what you do then, is you go home and live your life.......Reva interjects saying, Rick........Rick says, That's all you can do. Reva says, I finished the chemo, so what if I get the tests back and they tell me that the chemo hasn't helped me. She lets out a sigh and says, How do I decide the best way, to spend the rest of the life I have..............(Another great scene. Lots of angst and tears)
Reva is still with Rick and says, I'm just asking you as a friend Rick. Rick says, And I'm telling you as a friend Reva, your chemo is over, go home and enjoy the rest of your pregnancy, for goodness sake. Reva says, But what if the tests come back and the cancer is still there, or what if I don't make it untill the baby's born. Alan is shown listening at the door. (He was there getting checked out by Rick) Rick says, What if I cross the street and get run over by a herd of penguins. It could happen, right? Reva says, No, no you sound like Jeffrey. Rick says, He's right. You've done everything you can for your baby. You need to relax. Reva says, It's not enough. Alan is still listening. Rick says, It's never enough when you're a parent. So all you have left is just to stay positive. That's it. That does more good than all the drugs and doctors in the world, okay. Reva says, Okay, but not really convinced. Rick leaves and then Alan comes in and says, I know how you feel, Reva. Reva kind of rolls her eyes at him...........
Close up shot on Company's door saying, "Closed" Jeffrey comes up looking inside and knocks. Frank comes down the steps and Jeffrey gives him a, Hey Frank. Frank says, Hey buddy, what's up? Jeffrey asks, You seen Reva? Frank says, Uh, no, no I haven't. Jeffrey pauses looking in thought and then asks, Mind if I uh, get a drink? Frank says, No, no, absolutely not, I could use one myself. He tells him, it's open, as Jeffrey opens the door and they go inside. Frank gets some beers for them and says, We'll let Alan buy us a round. Jeffrey says, I heard your dad is giving up the place, I'm sorry. Frank says, You know what Jeffrey, it's just a place. We'll find another one. Jeffrey says, No, I'm sorry for the rest of us. Where are we gonna come now, when we need a drink, or when we need to talk to someone. I always counted on your dad. Frank says, Well, funny thing about that, he thinks noone should ever listen to him, so.......he says, Cheers as he clinks his bottle with Jeffrey. Frank then asks, So what's uh, going on with you? Jeffrey says, Na, you got enough going on. Frank says, Jeffrey, here's the deal, you tell me your story and I tell you mine. Jeffrey says, Fair enough, you first! Frank says, Okay, it's my dad. Jeffrey says, I know. He must be hurting. Frank says, Well, that's just the thing, he wants Alan Spaulding to hurt even more and he doesn't care how he goes about doing it. Jeffrey just gives him a concerned, curious look..........
Jeffrey is still with Frank and Jeffrey says, You know, we gotta do something, something to stop worrying. Something that guys do. Frank says, Okay, well, guys play poker, they watch sports, they play golf.......? Jeffrey says, No, it's too cold for golf. Jeffrey turns around and says in frustration, I don't know, I just feel like shooting something, maybe we should go to the shooting range. Jeffrey is picking up some tennis balls out of a box and bouncing them around. Frank says, Uh......well.......he says, You know what, you just gave me an idea. Frank grabs a trashcan and pulls out some empty cans and stacks them up and says, You want to shoot at something, knock those down. Jeffrey says, You don't think I can knock those down. Jeffrey asks, Are you sure, cause I'm gonna make a mess here. Frank tells him don't worry about it, Alan owns the joint, so fire away! Jeffrey says, Alright and takes a ball and wails it at the cans, and knocks them all down. He says in pride, Got em all my friend, got em all. Frank laughs and says, Yes you did! They both laugh and then Jeffrey leans on the bar and puts his hand over his mouth in frustration and Frank asks, What's going on with you? Jeffrey says, She's scared Frank. So am I. Frank asks, Reva? Jeffrey says, Not just about losing her, but what if this kid grows up, with no mother, noone to count on, except for me. Frank asks, What exactly are you afraid of, that you can't take of this baby on your own, or than you can.........? Jeffrey gives Frank's comment some thought.............
Alan follows Reva out of the exam room talking about, Your hopes your dreams, for those you care about, all turn to dust. Reva says, I don't believe that. Alan says, Isn't that what you were just telling Rick earlier. Reva says, that was confidential. Alan says, I can read you like a book. You are staring death right in the face, and it's staring back at you. Reva says, That's true for everyone, whether they know it or not. Alan says, Some people turn to religion, others to their faith, but to you and I, we know how it works out. We take all we can from this life and leave the next life to the losers. Reva says, I can't live in a world like that, as she starts to walk away. Alan says, It's the only kind of world there is. Even Buzz is coming around to my point of view. Reva stops and gives him a disgusted look and walks away............
Jeffrey comes home and calls for Reva. She doesn't seem to be there. He picks up the box of videos and Reva comes in. He asks, Reva, where did you go? Reva says, I was at the hospital. She takes off her coat and says, Just so you know, they won't give me anymore chemo. How bout you? Jeffrey says, Uh, I had a beer with Frank. Reva asks, How is he? He says, Worried about Buzz. Reva says, Yeah, I'm sure. She goes on saying, You know Alan says.......Jeffrey asks, What about Alan? Reva says, Alan was at the hospital getting a check up. Turns out he has a heart after all, but he seems to think that everyone is as cynical and fatalistic as he is. Jeffrey says, Including you.......? Reva says, I'm not like Alan. Jeffrey picks up the box of videos and asks, Wanna prove it? Reva says, I'm not getting rid of them. Jeffrey says, ........And I'm not letting you die. He puts down the box of videos and picks up the book of baby names and starts reading off names of K names as Reva watches him in concern............
SHOW OVER.
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